Counting on Uncertainty - August 2, 2013
Howard's favorite t-shirt touts this foundational wisdom which in centered moments is comforting and even exciting. And once again, context is everything. Rested and revived today, with some unknowns resolved, patient improving, I begin to settle again into more peaceful contemplation.
Making friends with the unknown is a cultural oxymoron, yet honing that relationship fundamentally changes experience. And although in the midst of sturm and drang I remind myself that this too will pass and that I might as well use the opportunity to be curious about the wild experience, plumb it's mysteries and my responses to it, because it will surely not last nor be able to be reconstructed ... yet the doing of this I find to be a constant challenge. There is the internal push-pull to be awake and notice and also to resist and push away.
Sitting on the shore after a passing storm, listening to soft lapping waves, smell-feeling the soft air, it's impossible to remember the terror of the dark, pulsing, frenetic movement that is simply not there anymore. There is relief in the sweetness of resolution and regret in not paying more attention to the wild storm.
Making friends with the unknown is a cultural oxymoron, yet honing that relationship fundamentally changes experience. And although in the midst of sturm and drang I remind myself that this too will pass and that I might as well use the opportunity to be curious about the wild experience, plumb it's mysteries and my responses to it, because it will surely not last nor be able to be reconstructed ... yet the doing of this I find to be a constant challenge. There is the internal push-pull to be awake and notice and also to resist and push away.
Sitting on the shore after a passing storm, listening to soft lapping waves, smell-feeling the soft air, it's impossible to remember the terror of the dark, pulsing, frenetic movement that is simply not there anymore. There is relief in the sweetness of resolution and regret in not paying more attention to the wild storm.
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